Life ever-changing.
I totally didn't mean for that post to stay up all that time...
My life has just been incredibly...hm..what?
How to describe my life right now without sounding cliche'?
In one fell swoop, my entire life has changed COMPLETELY.
Achilles and the broken ankle are in a cast for the next 4-6 weeks MORE.
Could be 8 weeks. When the orthopedic dr. told him he didn't need surgery, I nearly jumped up and kissed him full on the mouth. But I refrained. But... only just.
Since that day, I've been very... how should I say it... blunt about how much I'll do for Achilles, now that he is over the initial injury.
I am done being the ever-sacrificing wife who loses herself and resents all she must do for someone who doesn't seem to want to help himself.
Harsh, but there it is.
I cannot be that woman anymore.
He's not loving that, but thankfully it has turned out better than I dreamed.
It's easy to slip into a pattern like that and I am grateful he is open enough to hear those things.
Strange how I have reserved those lessons for my kids, but not so much for my husband.
I assumed that he was in the same mode I was.... but I realize now that we have not been equally yoked for some time.
I've been pondering a lot about how we got into that mode.
And how long I enabled him.
It has spilled over into many aspects of our relationship, and in his own personal life.
And now we're repairing.
It'll take a long time, maybe years, but I have faith we can do it.
I gave my notice at work last week, and it was incredibly hard.
I cried.
And felt like a complete jackass trying to explain to my boss why I needed to do this.
I flitted around with all the many many reasons, but ended up making no blubbering sense.
It was a total and complete leap of faith.
But had to be done.
Family First. Always.
Last night...
Achilles made a decision, and asked me to support him.
I'm so grateful he is finally making decisions, that I will do anything in my power to support him.
He's going back to college in the fall to try to figure out what he wants to be when he 'grows up'.
Which means that the kids will be back in public school for the first time in 7 years, so that I can help provide financially.
Since we'd already been talking about the idea, it wasn't a new one, but I feel better having a decision made. The 3 younger kids are really excited, especially E, whose never been to public school in her life. FINALLY, she'll get to wear a backpack and take a lunch to school. Because that's what it's all about, y'know.
There are some other things that have changed completely, that I don't feel I can share yet.
Because I'm not sure what will be happening, and I need time to process.
(((Hugs to all of you who have helped me keep my chin up.)))
My life has just been incredibly...hm..what?
How to describe my life right now without sounding cliche'?
In one fell swoop, my entire life has changed COMPLETELY.
Achilles and the broken ankle are in a cast for the next 4-6 weeks MORE.
Could be 8 weeks. When the orthopedic dr. told him he didn't need surgery, I nearly jumped up and kissed him full on the mouth. But I refrained. But... only just.
Since that day, I've been very... how should I say it... blunt about how much I'll do for Achilles, now that he is over the initial injury.
I am done being the ever-sacrificing wife who loses herself and resents all she must do for someone who doesn't seem to want to help himself.
Harsh, but there it is.
I cannot be that woman anymore.
He's not loving that, but thankfully it has turned out better than I dreamed.
It's easy to slip into a pattern like that and I am grateful he is open enough to hear those things.
Strange how I have reserved those lessons for my kids, but not so much for my husband.
I assumed that he was in the same mode I was.... but I realize now that we have not been equally yoked for some time.
I've been pondering a lot about how we got into that mode.
And how long I enabled him.
It has spilled over into many aspects of our relationship, and in his own personal life.
And now we're repairing.
It'll take a long time, maybe years, but I have faith we can do it.
I gave my notice at work last week, and it was incredibly hard.
I cried.
And felt like a complete jackass trying to explain to my boss why I needed to do this.
I flitted around with all the many many reasons, but ended up making no blubbering sense.
It was a total and complete leap of faith.
But had to be done.
Family First. Always.
Last night...
Achilles made a decision, and asked me to support him.
I'm so grateful he is finally making decisions, that I will do anything in my power to support him.
He's going back to college in the fall to try to figure out what he wants to be when he 'grows up'.
Which means that the kids will be back in public school for the first time in 7 years, so that I can help provide financially.
Since we'd already been talking about the idea, it wasn't a new one, but I feel better having a decision made. The 3 younger kids are really excited, especially E, whose never been to public school in her life. FINALLY, she'll get to wear a backpack and take a lunch to school. Because that's what it's all about, y'know.
There are some other things that have changed completely, that I don't feel I can share yet.
Because I'm not sure what will be happening, and I need time to process.
(((Hugs to all of you who have helped me keep my chin up.)))
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Hugs to you as you make decisions together.
You go girl!
My prayers are with you.
MISS YOU TONS!